Family

Family is something that most people have and a lot of people want. Most people see family as just one thing, blood. I believe that there are different kinds of family. Just because you are related to someone does not mean that they are family. Family are (should be) people that love you and take you for who you are. Even if you happen to be related to lots of people does not mean that any of them take you for who you are. Most of the time people just tell themselves, "oh, well, we're related, so I have to help." That should not be the way. You should only have "family" around you that you care about and that care about you back. You were born into a "family", that does not make you part of it or make them have to take you in. Make a family of your own. Friends are wonderful people to have a "family" with. I my self have many friends that are my "family". I also have family that I am related too. One is no more important then the other, just different. Now a days many people have families like this. There is not a problem with it. Unless it hurts you in some way, then its bad. Now that the holidays are here, it is time to think of all your families. Send time with the ones that "you" love. Don't let others tell you who you "should" send time with. It's your choice. I, myself, am going to see everyone. That is what I do every year. I just can't leave people out. No matter what kind of "family" you have or what you "believe" in, this cold time of year is time for family. Find a family and be thankful.

Cat Rant

I have cats. I have always had cats. I do believe that they are the best pets. I love how they can take care of themselves but the they choose to let us take care of them. I have three. Two 4 year old boys and one 2 year old girl. My little girl just got fixed. Poor little thing has had to be stuck in the room with me for almost two weeks. Soon she can join her brothers and be happy again. I felt so bad when we brought her home and she didn't want to eat or drink water. All she wanted to do was sleep. I know that it is for the better that she got fixed but it doesn't stop me from feeling bad about it. I can not believe that there are people out there that would hurt such sweet animals or any animal for that matter. As humans we need to take care of the animals around us. People treat animals meant for food better then those meant as pets. How could they. Humans are the reasons that they are pets in the first place. If your not going to take care of it then don't bring it into your house. Most cats and dogs that live on the streets were at some point someones pet. What the hell people. Of course they cost money, of course you have to take care of them. If you were not ready for that then you should never have taken them home in the first place. I look at my little cats and I cry thinking of all the animals that have to be outside and uncared for just because some asshole didn't think ahead. What a dick move. Poor things go hungry, get ran over, go to the pound, or just die from the elements. The pound can not even help for long because no one helps them. How much longer will people let this go on. We need to think before we do. If you have a pet please continue to love and care for them. If you don't, please think about it. There is nothing better then taking care of something. They return the love. Even cats. Most people think that only dogs are loyal and show love but cats do too. Mine jump on me when I get home from work and fight over me for attention. They are so cute. And on cold nights, I don't even need a heater because their all on the bed curled up with me. Please love and take care of what you have. They will love you back. I hope with all my heart that someday all animals will have a home. Good night little ones. Someone in the world loves you.

Growing Pains

When I was growing up, everyone said to try my hardest, do the best I could and to always be myself. Why is it that grown ups never tell kids the truth. When you get older it doesn't matter how are you try, if your doing the best you can, and you should never be yourself. When you work for someone other then yourself, there are ways that you have to act and they decide if you are doing your best. It is so hard to give 100% everyday and still be told to give more. If they wanted a perfect person then they should just go try to make one because the people that they are looking for and that they want us to be, are not real. You can't do more then your best. And watch out if you show even the smallest sign of being able to think for yourself. No one hires a person for who they are. They want the resume. That's all. So what if you read, so what if you like movies, so what if you have family that needs you. They do not give a shit. And it's really bad if you have medical problems. They don't want someone that needs to have health care. They want someone that they never have to think of as a person. I will not let this continue to happen. I will give a 100% even if they think I'm not. And I will be myself. I read! I write! I have friends! I have family! I have Health Problems!! Nothing stops me from doing the best that I can and nothing will ever stop me from continuing to try. We are all here to take care of each other the best that we can. We are all human ( or so I would like to believe ). Be the human that you need to be. It hurts no one to be yourself ( unless your self is a serial killer, then you just need to go away ), but if you turn yourself into what they want you to be then the only one you will be hurting is yourself. I refuse!! I am who I am! Green Eggs and Ham!! lol. Loved that book. Any who................just thought that I would rant about that. We should really tell kids that it is hard out there. And we should really stop the lies about it being different from high school because it's really not. You can lose your job because some popular girls don't like you. You can end up not getting a job because of the way that you look or talk. The world is a very hard place and every day that I step out into it, I really do feel like I just went back in time to high school.

Current thoughts

I have already said that people say that I talk too much. Well, they also say that I think too much. I happen to agree on that point. I do think too much. Way too much and about things that don't usually mean much. I was trying to fall asleep and I was thinking (for some reason unknown) about how I see myself. Ever since I was little I have wanted to be someone that others look up to. For me growing up, I had the authors of my favorite books. It would wow me every time I opened book. How did they do it. How did they make a world out of nothing. Then I wanted to be one, I have no talent for such a thing. I have been trying for years to write a book and I have very little to show for it, but lots of sleepless nights like this one. Some people just don't have the talent. But how could someone have no talent for anything. I don't know how, but I seem to be one of those people. There are so many things that I have tried and for some reason or another I have failed. Someone told me once that the only talent I had was being a door mat for others. I would like to think that I am not, but it's hard. Doing what is asked of me and being there for everyone, no matter what it cost me, just seems to be something that I am good at. The only thing I guess. Now, any of my friends that read this may disagree, but they do know that I am right about one thing: I am not good at anything. Not good enough to do something great or be looked up to by anyone. My one wish in life is to find something, anything, that I can be good at. I want to leave the world knowing that I made someones life a better place. My love and my friends have all been that for me. They make my world a better place every day. I know that this really isn't much to say, but maybe getting the thought out will help me sleep. I really don't think it will, but sometimes you have to try everything before you stop. I am thankful that my good friend told me to start blogging. Sometimes you just need to get the thoughts out there. Here's to the hope that tomorrow is a brighter day. Here's to the hope of Someday.